gaaaah... muy cansado.

updated my playlist. haha.
did loads of cwalk videos.
loads.

in the mist of doing one now...

oh yeah, i wrote a poem as well.
too darn lazy to upload it.

gonna upload it anyway.

You said you'd be there
I was counting on it
It's so not fair
The pieces don't fit
Click here for the whole thing

gaaahahaha
FUCKING FRUSTRATED.
PATHETICALLY PUNCHING POOR POOH.
GFTYJHGFGKJHGKJGYKJGHILKJHEKLUEHWFIUGHO823GFUI2G3R8O2I3FUGBOQQWIEFKQUFHEIWF8Q93OUBFIFKBQWUKF7WEHBQ8IOR74GUQ38IU4GIQ3U7UQG2IUGOI8FUWHO9FI8HU439H0QOIUHFOQ438RHQO48IFUQFIFHQ4O83FHQIO3FUHO
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.
i need to meditate. nao.
naooooooo
fuck fuck fuck fuck
my hands are fucking shaking and i can;t feel my legs.
fuck. shit
o3ulfhjqn
gaaaaaaasilweukfhjo
i hear themmlkherunkjfuck
fuck fuck
when i think 'fuck'
they fucink go 'FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK'
I DONT THINK EATING CHOCOLATE HAS TO DO WITH RACING THOUGHTS.
IAWUFKQHJFILEUFHQOIF
FUCK.

haish...........
finally.
my head spinning like spinning shit.

HAHAHAHA
have to prove that asian eyes are not tol black.

they're brown.

especially with light shined on them

PROOF~!

omg spider monkeys are EVERYWHERE!

haaaad endddd sholderrrs? wot...? deyyy shell thootpaste orrr sumtsing?
LOLWUT.

went to Mount Nebo for an excursion on bush-fires today

12 people puked. dw, i did not.
but i felt very nauseated though.
the mountain was freezingggggg
but it was cool. Jolly's lookout was best.

YUFANS VOMIT WAS LIKE A FOUNTAIN OF BABY FOOD!
BRIAN SAID IT WAS LIKE PEEEEE-UKE
like...whoaaaa.

motion sickness much.

you can't spell mountain without 'mo' 
you can't spell motion without 'mo'
you can't spell momo without 'mo'
wow. mo. what can you NOT do.

clarity comes in drips and drabs.

LOLOLOL whenever nooranah goes on her other email account. i laugh.

NOORANAH'S A GAY UNICORN~~!

well, it's not hard to imagine a homo unicorn...
i mean...look at charlie's companions~! 
(it's not clear if they're females or males...but still) 
they seem pretty gay to me.
heeeey charlayyyy--lettus goo on an ADDD VENN TURRRRRE.
WE'RE GOIN ON ANNNN ADDDDD VENNN TUREEE.

LOLOLOLOL go watch 'charlie the unicorn' on youtube.
fucking funneh. 

ughhhh cant find the piano score for 'Hat Full of Stars' by Cyndi Lauper...

-sigh- i'll just go play it by ear. Zzz

I LOVE THE HIVES SO MUCH~~! 
AWESOME BAND!
x
gaaaah~ go listen to their songs~!

kate is so fucking awesome.
she does probably the best covers of a song you know.
and her original songs are sheer prodigious.



Creeping Up The Backstairs-The Fratellis

gaaaaaah~~~!

oh yeah, got a haircut.
my mom cut my hair.
it's pretty good.
no kidding.

Just cool it. 
DUDE, CHILL.

Tarun's taking a break.
bawring.

YEAAAA I SO DID A CWALK VIDEO FOR NOOWANNA (Nooranah)
too freaking lazy to upload it here because blogger took so long.
yea i uploaded it to the blogger blog, that has all my old posts in it
and is now the blog tht me and nooranah share.
the one <-- there
in the links, but it's private.

it was pretty noob cwalk actually LOL.
boobabs said it's alright
and she gave me advice on the snappy part. @_@

i really wanna upload my paintings
but i'm really fickle-minded about whether scanning or a photograph would be better
LOL

i'm still hung up over the cwalk vid.
i keep looking at it.
why was i wearing a dress and tights.
b-b-but...i love dresses.

OH YEAH nooranah drew this

Rabbit Heart. by ~ridehimcowboy on deviantART

mister mighty makes me mellow.
alliteration.

tick tock
goes the clock
which is locked
so you have to knock
with a rock
and take off your socks
with a fork
and start to talk
while having pork
with a total dork

---------------------

ALPHA KENNY BODY --> say it 5 times.


you've just said 'i'll fuck anybody'

------------------------------------

webcam with bobabs was cool.





LOLOLOLOLOL, yea, she has my kindergarten graduation photo.
and behind the photo it says
-'COME ON BARBIE LETS GO PARTY'
-'CAFE'
-'ISABEL KINDERGARTEN GRADUATION'
-'LALALA PHOTO'
-'my signature'

BUT OMG, IT HAS COME ON BARBIE LETS GO PARTY
LOLWUTLOLWUTLOLWUT

oh and yes, my hair was in a bun, 
i tried doing this chopstick bun thing,
and i failed -curse layered hair- -i take tht back-
so i tied it in a bun instead.




AND NOORANAH HAS HER LEATHER BABIES
I DID A POSTER FOR IT
MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA
they're so fucking awesome
-me want-

i feel like broken glass

yeah, couldn't come online and had no lessons that required computers...

nightmare.

it was 3 nights ago,
it was dark and our faces were orange
there were loadsa people
perhaps 50?
and we were all on the roof of the stamford hotel in singapore. 
we lined up.
and together
we committed suicide.
jumping together.
all of us had a redstring tied to our ankles.
no escape.
it seemed we were all eager.
and all of us appeared in hell.

i could recognize at least 30 people i know, in the dream.

-sigh-

was painting alot 2 nights ago
and i've been listening to cyndi lauper on my sound system
her music makes me feel depressed, dont know why.
i cried. -embarassed-
i told myself i was never crying again.
and it was pretty bad this time round.
i was painting on the floor and my back was hurting a lot.
pounding shit.

i hate you scoliosis.
------------------------------------------------

oh yeah, if you're reading this,
i'm doing the 2025 environmentalists and urbanists thing.

HOLA TACOS~!
yeah... i'm posting because i'm a total loser
not.

well partly.

scoliosis

a suffering soul

on her face
you see a smile
but when it fades
behind the door
she corrupts 
onto the floor

crying her heart out
crying crying
why why 
is it so unfair
why why 
did she have to suffer


'i feel so hollow.
i feel so empty' empty
the echoes chime along.
along the street she smiles
she smiles at everyone
everyone doesnt know
about her misery 
her sorrow

whenever she smiles
she seems elated
but inside of her
she's defeated
broken, that's what she is
broken into smithereens.

everyday she wakes up
she feels her spine
twisting inside of her
more and more

'STOP' she screams
'STOP' she begs
but it'll never listen.
'stop' she sobs
a silent whimper.

she's pushing herself now
against the wall
flattening the hump
more and more
it hurts so bad
it hurts so very bad

her ribs are pulling out of her skin
'WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME'
she's shrieking now
louder and louder
she shuts her mouth
shuts it tighter,
bites her lips,
it starts bleeding,
licks the blood up.

warm water streamed down
down down down
she's lying on the bathroom floor
cold and shivering
her suffering soul
'self sympathy wouldn't hurt'
she mutters to herself.

herself. alone. 
suffering by herself
suffering so alone.

We were so in love

We were meant to be

But you chose

To be my memory

Click here~!



just here to upload the poem

before i leave this blog till august

i'll just talk about today

had soccer for hpe

LOLOLOL i suck but what the heck,

i still played anyway.



my thumb is swollen and pale.

it hurts when i move it. ):

pale...

at least it's better than the rest of my body being pale but the thumb.

that would be quaint.



oh yeah, deviantart isnt banned in school~~~!

omg. they banned tons of websites BUT deviantart

MUAHAHAHAHA



walked up to the train station with chris today

haha, he's funnehhhhhh

but i didn't laugh much.

not in the mood.



*_* 



i think if i have nothing else to upload

i'll upload my doodles in class.

LOLOLOL



fall fall fall

fall



fall........



it amuses me how you need it so bad.

i'm sorry.

i'm truly sorry that you've got a small

penis manhood.



SAWREY

the doctor's prescribed me a pill
i know i'm not crazy
i just lost my will 
so why am i taking them, still

someone's tryna hack into my youtube account...
YOU'LL NEVER SUCCEED~!
-i hope-
well not like there's anything in there...........

oh yeah

i did this other poem
nooranah came up with the storyline

about this girl and boy,
who used to be together
and she had this obsession with carving her names of her boyfrens into her arm
and her current boyf found out
and broke up with her
and she killed him
like the rest of her ex boyfriends who broke up with her.
she crosses out their names when she decides to kill them.

LOLOLOLOLOL

nothing to do with me or her.
just very random.

i'll upload it later...
i havent thought of a title for it...

ANYWAYS, nooranah did a barney and harry potter poem
-i helped-

it's seriously funneh.
she should upload it.
UPLOAD IT.

will just upload the poem later 
and leave this blog till august
because...
memory is a problem.

Burnt by water

Hurt by words

Try running faster

But that wouldn't work



click here to view the whole sonnet



it's a pretty short one.



it looks like there's a skyline on my thumb, the blue thumb.

not kidding.

tried to take a picture of it but failed, miserably.

it's pretty faint so you can't really see it anyway.

I HAVE A CITY ON MY THUMB~!



ow...so sore... cant hold objects properly.

herrrtsss weall bbadddd ):



oh yeah, i learned the gag dance thing

so when nooranah comes over we can do a cover of the dance

yay~!





i rmb when i was hooked on this song~~! it's so beautiful~~~!

someone sent it to me when i was like p5?

i dont remember who...



god i miss you.

why do i miss you

eskimo joe! <3 




and yeah.. my thumb is blue with blood.
LOLOLOL
wanna know what happened?

well, i slammed the car door on my thumb
and i pulled it out
and it was red, then purple, then green then now blue.
omg
i have no clue what to do with it!

Oh how I adore you
My sweet love
I'd stick to you like glue
If I could
Click here to view the whole thing

it's not the best
but it has a storyline
haha...
monsters in love
credits to Nooranah for the topic!
haha

did a few changes to it
from the critisizm i got
i liked the 'nibble my ear' part before
but i changed it
mm...

i miss LCYao :/

mm...deleted my myspace account
:| LOL serene should know why haha
walked to indro interchange with myungji today
had a nice chat. very nice.

and when we alighted at the bus stop and walked home
it was so beautiful.
the mountain there with clouds and the sun.
gosh, never in singapore.

i need a storyline for my next sonnet.
seriously. 
they've been saying i should write happier ones
haish. happier ones?

LOLOLOL 
i've been writing in stanza format!
hahahahaha 
it's in my head~!

oh yeah, doing poetry this term
heh....
poetry...
i'm only good at sonnets

so pathetic

I'm getting this vibe
This fake sense of liberty
I need some time
It's a necessity.
Click here to view the whole poem

parents sent us to school 
then we had to take the bus back home
it was pretty good besides the fact that 
i've forgotten my iPod shuffle
saw danny and harry (koreans)

harry's in my connect class,
he's alright...

harry: hello!
i: hey...
harry: what's your name?
i: uh... isabel?
harry: huh?
i: isabel
harry: whaaat?
i: AM I NOT SPEAKING LOUD ENOUGH ARGHHHHH
harry: oooh isabel (with strong korean accent)
LOL.....
bugger.

i shall be an optimist.
WOW, Today was da best day ever~!
first, i got this 20mm spring put in between my teeth,
it hurts so freaking bad, but remember! i'm an optimist!
i shall just take loads of paracetamol till i cant feel the pain at all!
woohoo~! kill my liver!

and you know how i got to the dentist's?
my oh so wonderful old man woke me up freakishly early,
and it was freezing cold~! but i'm an optimist, 
i am suppose to look at the good side of things.
hmmm, what's the good side of being cold?
BEING COLD~!

Yeahhhhh and so i was in the shower for quite a while 
because i refused to move away from the warm water.
and then father had to use his thunderously nice voice to get me out.
but it's alright, i can force myself to like thunder.
optimist, i am!

the locked post was about E*e.

oh yeah. i'm so tol convinced that your english is THAT GOOD.
when you cant even say the word 'rendezvous' properly.
NO IT IS NOT REN-DEZZ-VOUS.
but i dont blame you, 
it's a french word. 
used in english sentences all the time.

i need a storyline for my next sonnet.

there's a dental appointment tomorrow.
expect pain.
i like it when rachel and eve call me bel at times.

this was a convo between Jack the fucking jackass and I
j: gosh you're short
i: tht's because you're tall
j: but... ur like.. an elf.
i: elf?
j: yea... u know santa's lil' helpers?
i: yea i know. i hate elves.
j: haha, they can get annoying
i: yea they're arseholes. or maybe just one of them.
j: LOL you seriously have a problem with them.
i: yep.
j: you scared of santa or something?
i: =_= nah... how do you kill an elf?
j: tell santa, get him fired. he'll never survive!


LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

oo

i editted 'Your Manipulation'

 click to view

and i wrote another one called


Mismatched Lovers, click to view




i was on webcam with vee

yeah! i did a vid for Nooranah, 'coz she did on for me. haha THE LIBERTINES RULE!
-stuffs my face into my hat-
i realize i've got some weird hats but they're cool.

im really glad i've got CDs and not much of downloaded music. 
'coz finally got my soundsystem(yea the panasonic one, from singapore ;D) 
'coz it practically can opnly play CDs.
i am happy. it feels so nice in my room now. comfy.
the lappys speaker isnt really good quality.
i feel really calm right now. haven't felt this way in awhile.
i dont know why, i just feel uneasy at times.

slept after midnight last night,
was on devart the whole time, VEE AND PUNY RULE!
LOLOLOLOL

mm... i rmb how my whole p6 class was obsessed with deathnote, bleach and naruto
hahaha. good times.
DANIEL IS GAY, HE ADMITTED IT!
HE FREAKING SAID HE DOESNT MIND GOING OUT WITH A GUY 
ah~~!
hahahaha

=_= somebody else asked me through msn if i wore circle lens...
I NEVER KNEW WHAT CIRCLE LENSES WERE
I DONT WEAR CIRCLE LENSES OR ANY CONTACT LENSES AT ALL.
and they go
'WHY;RE YOUR EYES SO BIG? O_O'
and i;m like
'WTF O_o HOW WOULD I KNOW?'
=_= it's so UGHHHHHHHHH
who in the world created circle lenses?
i hate circle lenses.....

shana's blog is funny...
hiding behind glass. HAHAHAHA
MORONS
AND SHANA GOT SIMS 3..........
I AM JEALOUS.
nooranah, could u bring sims 3 along with you when you come over in december?
please?

KAICHENG is nooranahs mom.

junzhou is the first smelly cheese

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

My tummy hurts D;

Bring on the dreams

i'm not afraid

try and scare me

see me dead.



Click here to view the whole poem



yea, i was bored. so i decided to write one. haha. 
click it! it's the best one i've ever written. i think it is. haha

I was dreaming, not just dreaming but lucid dreaming last night and the night before.

the night before was a dream-initiated lucid dream (DILD) and last night it was

mnemonic-initiated lucid dream (MILD). so fucking awesome.



I almost killed you, I am going to achieve that.

I will. (;



and what is up with people putting 'quotes and phrases' as their PMs.

dont get me wrong, i dont exactly dislike them,

it's just, they put those lame ones like 'dont make me fall for you blabla crappy bullshit'

tht was yolk mans personal msg.
oh and here's another one 
'even though i pretended to move on, you'll always be my babe'

LOLOLOL that made me laugh the most. 
you pretended to move on, and you're putting that as your personal message..
why? =_=||| dude! you're blowing your cover. 
oh wait, unless you're pretending you pretended. 
(which i dont think you're mentally capable of, but of course

there're exceptions ^_^)



there're more... i just cant be fucked to type them out, they're mostly chinese anyway.



AHAHAHAH i just came up with a nickyname for ezzyra (ezra) 

no it's not ezzyra,



it's...









ASS-RAWR















muahahahahahhahahahahahaha

:D hello!


-sigh- i shall type with this font. i'm getting fatter. i can tell. probably because i've been taking an average of 5 chocolate bars a day, HAHA. my mom told me not to eat so much but she's always been the one telling me to fatten up. @_@ confused much. i like chocolate. chocolate makes me happy. but i dont care about getting fat anymore. SEE HOW YOU LIKE ME NOW.

and if you're going to go and confront me saying tht
'my gosh, Isabel! you never used to be so insultive. you used to be so.. so.. bubbly and cheerful and and smiling all the time~! what happened to you!? T-T i miss the old you... ):'

well tell you what, go build a time machine.

i dont really care anymore. all the while i've always bottled things up. and it's not good at all. and like serene said 'this is a disgusting world, why should i change for something so disgusting' yes. yes. true, very true. this world is filled with assholes, and even if this world only contained one asshole. i will not change for the better, because? yep, tht one asshole is too asshole-like to change for.

I just finished watching this movie called 'The Man Who Went to Mars'

sweet. made me cry alot, but the comments contained spoilers.
I feel sad for seung-jae. he was so faithful to her.

-sigh-
guess she got back what she deserved, KARMA.



mm, stop copying me BEYOTCH.

i get irritated, especially with your bad grammar and your absence of originality.

get your own life.

 I've got weird scars in the inside of my mouth.
it's terribly annoying and it feels weird. the end of the wire cuts me when i speak
and i dont have my wax anymore. -sigh-
added a playlist to this livejournal. I love Josh Pyke.
I KNEW HIM BEFORE I CAME OVER TO AUSTRALIA.
and he's an Australian.
there're c walk vids at the end of this entry.
i'm just typing to fill up the space, because if i dont it would be empty
there's something wrong with this skin you see...
school's gonna start soon, i've got another dental appointment on monday.
there's no school on monday - student free day.
There're lots of student free days here.
i might have an extra 3 days of holiday 
because the teachers are thinking of going on strike (again).
if they do, i would try to go to the city with dalton (they're striking in the city)
and throw empty bottles at them while screaming
'GET BACK TO WORK'
lololol, daltons idea.

okay hopefully this is enough.


cwalk videos. so awesome. lillyan has a vid too, will upload it some other time.

I'm bringing up this situation 
could you explain yourself to me? 
yea you mentioned your solution, 
but to me, it's incomplete. 




Click here to view the whole poem


oh yeah, and the monthly blood thing finally came. 
IN YOUR FACE! SUCKER! 
I'll probably never stop hating you. 
because assholes never change. 
now, I have a 50 meters space bubble from assholes 
- no asshole can come within 50 meters from me 
and ironically, assholes have a -20 (negative twenty) space bubble 
- you can touch them anywhere. 

********* has changed a whole lot. 
she has changed to become just like you. 
i told you she has feelings for you. 
but her english is still at --> EPIC FAIL STANDARD, 
well maybe i'd like to call it ---> PRETENDING MY ENGLISH IS OH-SO FANCIFUL AND 
MY GRAMMAR IS THE BEST IN THE WORLD. 

FAILURE. 

she's actually said something equally egoistic as that. 
now, isnt she just like you? 
awwh, how cute.... 

I dont get why you have to try and conform into a stereotype. 
IF THT'S WHAT YOU'RE NOT, DON'T TRY AND BE THAT WAY. 
it's awfully disgusting. 

finally got my guitar stand...could see that my mom thought they were expensive and
wanted to go for the cheapest one. i dont mind. the cheaper the less guilt. 
Turns out, humphrey thinks the same way as I do- that sinny tries too hard to be
what he's not. especially when speaking english. see, im not the only one who thinks 
you're not cut out to be what you want to be. it's not really wrong to be a wanna-be. 
but it's sad.


sims is the perfect game for sadists. sims is the perfect game for me. 
i find joy in killing simulations of people. but it's not enough. not enough. 
i'm gonna have to slaughter an animal.



haha, it's funny how my mother and sibling are so alike in some ways that they annoy 
each other. i dont think they noticed tht. but i do. it amuses me...



gosh, my mussed-up morning hair gave me goosebumps. i wish there was no mirror 
in my room. (i take that back) my mother says it's good to weigh yourself 
(that's probably why there's a weighing scale in the bathroom) 
and yes, i am a female. i weigh myself. consistently 39kg at the end of everyday. 
but sometimes it gets to 37 or 42. mm... weird weighing scale.



winyu says byatch instead of beyotch. i prefer beyotch.



i realize i've been typing in point form.



got my transit link go-card today. it's something like an ez-link just...less cool.



have to take the bus to school from now on... i dont dread it...it's pretty fun. listening to 
my iPod and jus thinking.



i heard somebody whispering hello in my ear while i was at the shopping center with 
my family. i turned to look but there was no one. so i jus concentrated on my brothers 
words. but it came again, the same voice saying 'i know who you are. i know what you 
want. i know who you want. i know. i know it all.' 
creep-ed my out. the voice was deep and husky, with a little bit of english accent in it. 
i was jus silent and my brother was going 'you think it's lame right? right?' or 
somewhere along those lines. -sigh-